At the end of August, I decided to go on a hiatus for the violin and instead learn to play the piano, an instrument I have always wanted to learn to play. I spent all of September slowly working through Suzuki Book I and learning how to play with both hands. It was slow and complicated, but that was to be expected with a new instrument. After October rolled around, I completely stopped. Why? I’m really not sure, I just had no desire to play all of a sudden. In the end, I believe it was due to lack of inspiration.
I had no one to look up to, and was instead inspired by non-music blogs and thought I wanted to go that route instead. I even thought of picking art back up and pursuing it. In the end it all felt wrong. I enjoyed all of it, but not to the extent of music. The more I pushed music to the side, the more it nagged at me and I wanted to do it. I felt like a complete mess and knew I started going against what my heart truly desired. I’m happy to say that I am now on the right path.
Once I decided to change paths away from music, two days later I changed back and knew I had to do it. Nothing else felt right. I then went and found some pianists who covered anime music on YouTube, something I one day want to play myself, and instantly felt inspired. So inspired, I practiced that night! After that, music has constantly been roaming around my head and I can’t stop thinking about it. I want to practice, I want to write about it, and most of all I want to embrace it.
These were a very messy few weeks for music and although I hate how much time I wasted not practicing, I am glad I experienced all these changes. It made me realize that music truly is the right road for me, and nothing else.